fashion over functions yo

xsceneisgayx @ 2006-03-22T15:32:00

2006-03-22T21:32:48Z

oh and erin... what the heck happened to you... it breaks my heart when i read your journal... to know how much you once loved jesus, and now?

a good action always brings good fortune

2006-03-22T21:26:21Z

"As each one has recieved a special gift, employ it in serving one another." [1 Peter 4:10 NASB]

"The world needs servants. People like Jesus, who did not come to be served, but to serve. He chose remote Nazareth over center stage Jerusalem, his dad's carpentry shop over a marble-columned palace, and three decades of anonymity over a life of popularity. Jesus came to serve. He selected prayer over sleep, the wilderness over the Jordan, irascible apostles over obedient angels. He picked the people. Peter, Andrew, John, and Matthew. When they feared the storm, he stilled it. When they had no coin for taxes he supplied it. And when they had no wine for the wedding or food for the multitude, he made both.

He came to serve

He let a woman in Samaria interrupt his rest, a woman in adultery interrupt his sermon, a woman with disease interrupt his plans, and one with remorse interrupt his meal.

Though none of the apostles washed his feet, he washed theirs. Though none of the soldiers at the cross begged for mercy, he extended it. And though his followers skedaddled like scared rabbits on Thursday, he came searching for them on Easter Sunday. The resurrected King ascended to heaven only after he'd spent forty days with his friends-teaching them, encouraging them...serving them."

"He stripped himself of heaven's robe, layered himself in epidermis and hair, hunched down in our world, and spoke our language in the hope that he could lead this bunch of turkeys back home again. He set aside the privilages of deity and took on the status of a slave, became human! Having become human, he stayed human. It was an incredibly humbling process. He didn't claim special privileges. Instead, he lived a selfless, obedient life and then died a selfless, obedient death-and the worst kind of death at that: a crucifixion."

Love the overlooked.Jesus sits in your classroom, wearing the thick glasses, outdated clothing, and a sad face. You've seen him. He's Jesus. Jesus works in your office. Pregnant again, she shows up to work late and tired. No one knows the father. You've seen her. She's Jesus. When you talk to the lonely student, befriend the weary mom, you love Jesus. He dresses in the garb of the overlooked and ignored. "Whenever you did one of these things to someone overlooked or ignored, that was me-you did it to me." [Matt. 25:40 MSG]

"If you think you are too important to help someone in need, you are only fooling yourself. You are really a nobody" [Gal. 6:3 NLT]

Don't be too big to do something small."Throw yourselves into the work of the Master, confident that nothing you do for him is a waste of time or effort" [1 Cor. 15:58 MSG]

A good action not only brings good fortune, it brings God's attention. He notices the actions of servants. He sent his Son to be one.

xsceneisgayx @ 2006-02-01T12:07:00

2006-02-01T18:07:26Z

san anton kids, be there

xsceneisgayx @ 2006-01-30T18:25:00

2006-01-31T00:26:02Z

does anyone even read this anymore lol...

<33

new hairrrr

2005-12-31T18:40:11Z

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-12-24T21:52:00

2005-12-25T03:52:22Z

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-12-21T09:29:00

2005-12-21T15:29:39Z

so im moving to san antonio
thats all

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-11-30T23:26:00

2005-12-01T05:32:39Z

and ended up with like this white trash wanna be johnny depp from pirates of the carribean mixed with detriot rock city... its so AMAZING!!!! hahahaha i have never been more happy with something so retarded in my life lol heres a crappy camera phone pic that doesnt nearly encompass the freakin amazingness of the handle bar mustach, ninja trainer gotee, and elvis chops hahahaha i LOVE it its like halloween

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-11-23T13:19:00

2005-11-23T19:27:49Z

this weekend i realized that when you dont gaurd your heart and you let your emotions get the best of you 9 out of 10 you get hurt i had an amazing week with her but even the right person at the wrong time is the WRONG THING im pretty heartbroken but i trust that God is gonna take care of my crappy heart <3 maybe one day

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-10-30T18:13:00

2005-10-31T00:20:11Z

i just think this is funny... last night was memorable... i went to a show in Baton Rouge at the darkroom and all these people, mostly giiiirls would come up to me and pull the whole... "Arent you brandt is hollywood from myspace"? lol... well it happened like 30times and i took like 5 pics hahahahahahah and one of the lovely ladies sent me one and put it on her page... so freakin nuts... MYSPACE IS OUTA CONTROL!

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-10-26T13:56:00

2005-10-26T19:02:15Z

beardcore

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-10-24T19:19:00

2005-10-25T00:26:14Z

so i just wanted to say how much God has become a reality to me as of lately... wow... if you can get a book named velvet elvis... DO IT... wow <3

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-10-20T18:59:00

2005-10-21T00:04:03Z

NEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

this is a kenny type entry haha... (meaning hella long and from my heart)

2005-10-11T01:30:15Z

well this is my life up till now... its pretty chaotic but amazing... i paid to get my car out of the impound that has been there for over a year haha... and i couldnt find the key so i cant take it lol... but i did get my bible notes from my 2 years at TBI and me and abras scrapbook... i cried when i saw it and im sure i will cry when i look at it for real...

im working construction to help get things back to normal with the hurricanes... making like 20bucks an hour so soon i will be moving into my best friend clays newly bought house and buying myself a new car <33333 and hopefully a cellphone (sidekick) for once in my life...

i am working with the youth at first assembly and really enjoying it... at the end of the month i will start my classes to get me licensed as a minister, and then get on staff at the church which is hella exciting...

this is all ramble, i know, but bear with me... pretty much my life is looking amazing and i wish that abra was here to share that with me... i miss her more than anyone in the world and she is soooo valuable to me and God alike... gahhhh...

well i work all week... rarely get on the computer... have NO HUMAN CONTACT... and make tons of money and never have any time or energy to spend it so i would way im doing ok...

i love you all and sorry for this huge JUMBLE of thoughts... xoxo

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-10-06T16:42:00

2005-10-06T21:44:58Z

oh and i just want to say... quit freakin running from God... running from the only thing that was ever real in your life besides pain, which is all you will feel doing what your doing...

"I offer you death and life... CHOOSE LIFE......"

how easy is that crap... haha

i love you all... so very much...

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-10-06T16:35:00

2005-10-06T21:35:17Z

im in TUPALO MISSISSIPPI... with the most painful sunburn you can ever imagine... like wow... pray for me :(

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-09-30T00:43:00

2005-09-30T05:47:35Z

i am sorry for being crap in the past.. no more..

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-09-27T12:11:00

2005-09-27T19:12:36Z

God will make a way
where there seems to be no way

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-09-22T16:30:00

2005-09-22T21:36:50Z

so hurricane rita is coming
and i aint leavin
prayyyy for me

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-09-19T18:58:00

2005-09-20T00:00:37Z

im so glad that i still have Jesus... thats all i have to say... that nigga is the most hardcore a man can get... lol...cause some people are just idiots without him...

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-09-16T14:45:00

2005-09-16T19:51:57Z

so i just wanted to admit that i miss some old people from my life... kenny was amazing... i treated him like crap... and im glad that we moved on and are cool now... matthew... duh!...and ofcourse erin... i know we never talk anymore... besides when she wants something back that i have of hers... but i think that their could be a friendship there... their are reasons why you forget about some people and some you never forget... erin and kenny are 2 of those kids... for the most part alabama was amazing for me...

but sometimes a friendship only last for a season, but hopefully not in this case...

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-09-12T14:53:00

2005-09-12T19:55:02Z

She walked up to the doorframe where I was standing. She kissed me softly to show that she cares, yet remains distant. I wouldn't mind if she monopolized all of my time. I wouldn't say a word at all. No not one word. The closer I get, the faster she pushes away. And when I catch on and mind my own business, slowly, in her own time, when it's seemingly convienent, I am blessed with the presence, her touch. I'm under the impression, that apart from God, she is in complete control of our "relationship". I have never wanted something or someone more then I do now, but inevitably I have no say and feel completely paralyzed in my incapability to be a man, a real man. A take charge man. The man who sweeps the woman off her feet. The man who reflects the love of God and ignites a fire in the woman he desires. Despite my understanding that I am his workmanship, knowing my faults, and embracing my weakness. I rip down the orange caution signs that God perfectly places so that thigns remain slow. My expectancy sometimes overpowers my sanity, and I perpetually make the wrong choices, which displays to her I'm the wrong "person". Indecision is breaking my back, yet my faith in something so impossible maintains the little bit of balance that remains. Regardless of the opinion of man, I know I am of great worth in God's sight. In the end, I know that He is all that matters. Love is all that matters. I see so much of Him in her, which is why she matters. In her absence i will fight. This is my reality.

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-09-11T19:49:00

2005-09-12T00:53:58Z

something to keep me going...

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-09-07T16:09:00

2005-09-07T21:20:20Z

so these are the realities in my life right now... hurricane katrina aftermath... cause it effects many of my family members and my close friends... Abra... she is like heartbeat... My Jesus who keeps my purpose for living alive...

I know that im far from perfect... i dont think i could ever be the perfect husband or perfect christian... but i do know that Jesus is constantly working on me and that one day all the jaded edges will fall off and expose something beautiful...

i met the most beautiful person ever ladt night... he was an overweight black man, his teeth were screwed up... wore a fanny pack and dirty clothes... crosseyed... talked with a lisp... and totally ministered to me in the middle of a bookstore... touched my heart like no one i have ever met in my life... i realized that you never know if you are entertaining the presence of angels... and i cant help but think that... He really made me change my perspective on how people look and what ones heart may carry, no matter how "unattractive" their outside may be...

he told me that when Jesus touched the lepers, it wasnt the fact that He said "you are made whole" that blessed them, it wasnt even getting healed... it was the fact that someone cared enough to TOUCH them.... It wasnt the healing of their bodys that changed their lives, it was the act of compassion that no one else would ever do, that changed their entire lives...

that changed my life...

i never want to look at anyone with any kind of judgement or racial profiling ever again... That sweet man in the bookstore might as well have been jesus... because in that moment i felt whole... i felt the love of a stranger... and i felt my calling...

christina and abra, know that i love you girls more than anyone else in my life... you bless me more than ever, and i know that i may say the wrong things sometimes and i might be mis-interpreted sometimes... but please know that you girls make my life so much better and God has blessed me more than i can ever imagine with your friendships...

be blessed...

xsceneisgayx @ 2005-08-31T22:41:00

2005-09-01T03:41:41Z

so im with abra now
and i dont care what anyone thinks
she is my world
and thats all i care about